Posted by Donna Mitchell-Moniak on 4 January, 2013
2013 will be a year of truth, deep truth, and the maybe the deepest truth of all: we are in this together. The fullness of that statement, in all the ways it can be heard and said, come through this note from someone of the Spirit Fire community who lives in Connecticut. As you read it, telescope in and out to them and from them, to similar pain and needed awareness and change here, there, and around the world. (shared with the permission of the author written on December 26, 2012)
We are processing much loss from the Newtown tragedy and from local deaths. Of five funerals this week, 2 were Newtown victims; the other 3 were unexpected from the community. I only attended one this week. I will also participate next Sat. in a memorial for our elder employee and then the current rituals of passing will be done for a bit.
Beyond the funerals, the PTSD is setting in for the rescue people. A Bethlehem state cop was among the first “pod” to enter the school. Five guys had the job to neutralize the situation and go through every square inch of the building to report the situation and insure safe entry. He’s is bad shape from what he witnessed. After 30 yrs on the force, there’s no place to hide after what he experienced.
Men and women alike are fragile right now, easily triggered into emotional grieving. So hard the mind tries to make sense, to control, to insure we’re safe. Of course, it doesn’t work.
A deep sadness and loss is wanting to find it’s voice. Mostly, the thoughts keep repeating.
My sister is here from New Hampshire bringing some normalcy and new conversation. Usual holiday gathering is more about finding solace with each other than about celebration.
I know you are there, at Spirit Fire, holding the flame and teaching the only lessons that can truly bring healing and change. I’m grateful for that connection.
